An Insider Looking In
I’ve been going through some old emails and found one from a former patron that I thought I’d share. This blog has, for me, been an experiment in personal expression and a way to solidify my beliefs about what I do. It’s been pretty cathartic, actually. Still, there’s a lot I leave out for reasons of self-preservation, so it’s impossible to get across a complete picture. I’ve decided to start separating my professional site from this one, so I can be a bit more open and personal here. We’ll see how that goes…
I’ll preface this excerpt by saying that the author was prone to extremes of romantic flattery but I still take the following as a great compliment. It was written in the middle of last year and I think what he says was true at the time.
“S–I love that you are “overtly smutty.” I finally see something about you. Most people use blogs and networking sites to create a persona, an avatar that represents their ideal of themselves or someone they wish they were courageous enough to be. These people are often disappointing when you meet and “unmask” them. You on the other hand are the opposite. You expose the raw inner self – you try on your “outrageous” statements as a test – not for others but you want to see if you yourself believe these things when you hear yourself saying them. Your “real world” persona therefor is much softer and more complex than the Avatar. You are like a wine with absolutely superb tannin - a little stringent at first taste but you leave a lingering aftertaste that grows and expands in complexity and opens up as it does with more and more gentle flavor every moment one lets you linger on the pallet.”
